I think that developing the regular habit of writing here will help me to adjust to my new lifestyle better, so perhaps getting on here more often will be one of my New Year's resolutions (not that I have ever been very good at keeping them). I need to think through things, process events and emotions and the way I respond to them and to food.
The scales are slowly moving in the right direction, although sometimes I am not helping myself very much. I have many years of habits to undo.
Christmas was not bad on the food front. I ate less that I would normally have eaten, that is for sure. But I ate more than I should have. I am still defeating myself with comfort food, most of which fits through the band without any problem. grrr...
I now have more restriction than before, and I think that one more adjustment to my fill should put me in a good space. I want to be able to eat small amounts of a variety of good, fresh, normal healthy food. And I want to be able to have a little treat without guilt.
Because this is a lifestyle, not a diet.
About Me
- flannery
- Welcome to my lap-band blog... I am an American expat living in Australia, married to a wonderful man. The most important things to me are faith, family, friends and food.
Hi - I have just read through your December posts and admit that I can completely relate to what you are saying! I had my surgery on the 12th Nov '09 and my first fill about a week before Christmas. Whilst I have had a few "painful moments" where I assume food is getting a little stuck before sliding down through the band (think severe heartburn/stabbing pain) I haven't had too many problems as yet. I certainly haven't brought anything back up again and haven't needed to dial the 'emergency' number the surgeon gave me just in case! But like you, I have found that since my 1st fill I seem to be fitting more food in than I thought I would. I too have difficulty rationalising between true 'stomach' hunger and just plain 'head' hunger, as my Dietitian calls it.
ReplyDeleteI had a terrible day yesterday for example. 2 pancakes with the kids for breakfast - not so bad you might say, but that was followed by an Ice Break Iced Coffee for morning tea (this is my one SERIOUS weakness!) and a pie for lunch. Afternoon tea was half a crunchie and then before dinner I managed to down 2 glasses of red wine instead of the recommended 1.
Like you I have put yesterday down as a bad day and am trying to just 'get on with it' today but it's hard not to feel like I'm letting myself down. I have to agree with you though that old habits do die hard, regardless of the size of your stomach. It's particularly difficult when foods like M & M's and ice cream slide on through seemingly effortlessly!
I have lost a total of 9 kg so far which isn't bad considering I only had the operation about 6 or 7 weeks ago. I lost the majority of the weight in the first 4 weeks which surprised me. I still have about 20 - 25kg to go but considering it's only been a few weeks, I have only truly exercised twice in that time, and I am not being true to myself with my food, I guess it's not too bad.
It's a long journey but I am pleased to have found your blog and to be able to share experiences with someone who seems to be experiencing the same issues. Thank you for blogging your experiences and keep up the great work - both with your food/exercise and the writing! It's a great inspiration!