@#^%$^??!!!

I cheated yesterday. I feel like a total idiot and failure. It's only day 5 and I'm still on liquids. But the old complusion to eat, to taste, to chew, to have something nice and sweet and carby and comforting took over. Well, I let it.

I didn't eat much and I chewed it well and I don't think it caused any damage, but I was (and still am a bit) beating myself up over it. Why would I sabotage and jeopardise myself at this stage?

Well, I cannot undo it, so I am just going to learn from it. I have a problem with food. That is how I got here. I have spent many years forming this warped relationship and it may take some time to extricate myself from it. Getting into the right headspace is going to be such a battle for me, but, with the help of God, I will do it!

Time to move on.