A new me is on the way

I am now 3 days out from the surgery and I am feeling better each day. The surgery went well and I am sore but feeling pretty positive about it all. Well, to tell the truth, sometimes I do lament that it has come to this. I feel really weak and like a failure. As if I were a stronger, better person I could have lost the weight without such drastic measures.

Maybe that is so. I am weak. But in my weakness is my strength. I have made this choice and I am glad. I have made a choice to be healthy. The band is not magic; it is a tool. And this is primarily a medical decision and a health issue. I want to live, not just exist..dragging my self around, apologizing on the inside for taking up too much space. I have waited too long...the new me is on the way!